Three months ago I met a man on the internet, and we speak at least once a day. It sounds quite ridiculous for me to say this, but we have fallen in love, even though we are both married to other people. He has two young children and I have three. Luckily he lives a great distance away, otherwise I would be tempted to meet up and embark on an affair.
My husband and I just don’t communicate anymore, and each time I speak with this other extremely attentive man, who makes me feel wanted and desirable, it reinforces how bad my marriage has become. I cherish the moments spent with my online lover, and the intimacy we share.
I know what I’m doing is wrong, and I do still have feelings for my husband, and wished things would improve between us, but I am struggling to give up the excitement of the other man.
Can you see a way forward for me?
Patricia Marie says...
The online environment is the perfect breeding ground for fantasies, allowing us to ascribe all the wonderful qualities we want in a partner to someone we’ve never met. This may seem harsh to digest, but falling in love on the web is more desperation than reality.
You have stepped into a dangerous make-believe world and, if allowed to continue, you could become very restless and resent your husband for what you cannot have, which could turn into a difficult situation. Your relationship with this man you haven’t even met, is not real. It is simply a form of escapism from what has become a dull marriage.
What is real, is what you have, and should be working on keeping, not putting your energy into something that could become your downfall. Maybe your husband would start to communicate better if you focused more on your family life, and stopped betraying him for imaginary passion. At times every marriage has problems, and working together to solve and get through such difficulties is what bonds and enhances the relationship.
You say you still have feelings for your husband, so build on those feelings. Get away with your husband for a short break, or even an overnight stay. Spending quality time talking and relaxing together will hopefully enable you to start enjoying each other’s company again. Nevertheless, to reconnect with your husband, you must let go of your fantasy and fully disconnect yourself from this other man. Go and pull the plug on that computer, and get back in the real world.
For further help and support, I feel you and your husband could benefit from attending Relate for some Counselling sessions. (relate.org.uk. 0300 100 1234) Relate offers counselling services for every type of relationship nationwide. We provide advice on marriage, LGBT issues, divorce and parenting.
Patricia Marie, our Agony Aunt, wants to hear your problems, dilemmas, and quarrels. Just email them to patricia.marie@lady.co.uk
